An Overdramatized Interlude preceding Spiritual Commentary.

Me: What a lovely day it is outside. It just makes me want to sing!

Universe: LOVELY DAY? SINGING?! not on my watch! With all my powers combined I will strike that voice from your body so you cannot talk/sing for 3 days! BAHHHH. *lightning*

Me: What the...was that lightning?! and HEY! I usually never lose my voice completely! What? i have a fine arts competition in 3 days? Maybe this hot tea will help.

Universe: NEVER! Take that, blasted tea pot!! *more lightning*

Me: *sigh* That was my only tea pot. Oh well, at least i have that ministry outreach i've been looking forward too. Even though i can't sing during it..i can still work with the emotionally and physcially hurting people in the harsh downtown city streets of Oklahoma.

Universe: ha! I've never helped anyone a day in my life and look at me? I turned out just fine! BAM!!! There's a dose of some random allergic reaction...and better yet, let's put it on your face! BUT ONLY THE RIGHT SIDE SO YOU LOOK EVEN MORE DEFORMED!

Me: Hm. Well, now that my face has been magically injected with Botox I'll jus-

Universe: -WAITTTTT I FORGOT TO GIVE YOUR LIFE A DOSE OF STRIFE! KABLLAAMM! There! Now your household will be in utter chaos!





At times i feel like the entire Universe wants to destroy me.

But, this only happens when my life and the God of the Universe are intertwined. Everything falls apart when God is preparing me for something worth it. Coincidence? I think not.

I think, sometimes...actually, a lot of the times, God tests your faith for different reasons. Reasons upon which i cannot comprehend. His ways are mysterious and my limited mind can't possibly interpret any of it. And i'm not going to try to.

Because i know, that God's ways are perfect. I know that his timing is perfect. So, if i can push the chaos aside and realize it's not about me, it's about honoring God and serving him and his people and not letting this present situation (however crazy and abnormal it may be) alter a single second of what God has in store for me, then that's when i can truly and fully embrace the change that God is doing in my heart, mind and ultimately my life.

What good would it do if i let every situation and every negative person or comment effect my attitude? If i did, then i would have too many overdramatized blogposts to count.

So, even though it feels like the weight of the world is pressing down on my shoulders...i will lift my hands and eyes to you, Lord.

You hold the Universe.

Mystery

I don't name you, you name me.

I don't understand you, you understand me.

and the paradox of this love is that you uncover me

as you unveil yourself.



the mystery of this discovery swallows all of who i am.

that's the essence of faith.

if i could understand faith it would cease to be faith.

I only know the mystery

becuase the mystery knows me.

where we left off

dear blag,

i apologize for my absence.

a slew of events have taken me from your ever loving care.

there is a large vacuum in my soul, where your internets once were. a hoover upright of sadness.



there, there. the worst of our separation is over.

once again you shall have your words. and i shall have my blag.



love your bosom friend (if you'll still have me?)


allison